TO MY DEAR NANAY

While looking at this picture, I caught myself draped with mixed feelings.

This photo was taken last month when I went home for vacation. I was laughing to myself when I noticed how funny my face was while I’m giving you a kiss. I was in the mood of joking with you that time, playing and goofing around. We were laughing all day. It was one of my cherished and happiest days.

Glancing at your face, I began to notice how time has taken your youth & how your illness (which you’ve suffered from for more than a year now) has stolen your former glow. That’s when I felt a sudden twinge in my heart. The smile on my face has been replaced with melancholy.

 I felt the guilt of not being there to take care of you becauseI can’t remember a day that you’re not there for me especially during hard times.

I may not be with you everyday but that doesn’t mean that I don’t care for you at all. Though distance may keep us apart, Lord knows how hard I pray each and every single day for your fast recovery, for everyday protection and for a lengthened life to be showered upon you. 

Through praying I find real comfort, this is the best way I know to express how much you mean to me and how much I care about you, There’s never a day that I don’t think of you, you are in my mind and in my heart every single day of my life.

I love you and I am so blessed to have you as my mother.